Just thinking...

[synnoveaevael]

There are a lot of reasons I shouldn't be alive right now.

Like. My mom was too young and selfish when she had me. Totally should have had an abortion.

But.

She didn't.

And then she dated some REEEAAAL douche bags.

Some of them really hurt me, emotionally, none physically, but.. one in particular really made me want to end life. First mine. Then I realized HE was the problem, and I set my course differently.

But, obviously.. I didn't.

Then.. there are FREAK allergic reactions that were one time responses to things.. boughts of depression.. accidents... teenage stupidity...

But.. I'm still here.

When I graduated high school, I was totally flabbergasted. For some reason, it NEVER occured to me that I'd live to see that day.

So, once I did.. well. My outlook on the world sort of shifted. I no longer felt like I was on borrowed time.

As I get older, I feel certain parts of life are sweeter.

A year or two ago, being this broke would have CRIPPLED me.

Today, I don't feel so bad about it. It's just money. It comes and goes as it pleases.

I'm very calm about a lot of things. Friendship dramas, life in general.. I just let it all float away. Smell the sweeter things.

Advice I offer a lot lately is, "enjoy this feeling now, cause you don't know how long it'll last".

Prolly the best thing I've come up with so far.

I think the majority of the peace I have lately is due to one person. Cause he's my rock.

I love you, baby. :)

Comments

[woodchuck665.livejournal.com]

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww... ^_^

(As I've been saying since July of last year: "Everything that's gone wrong happened for a reason.")

[synnoveaevael.livejournal.com]

I TOLD YOU SO.

there.

:)

[raicee.livejournal.com]

*grins*
I've learned not to ask why something happens, just know that it happens for a reason.

[synnoveaevael.livejournal.com]

for somethings... i definitely agree with that..

[hunnysun.livejournal.com]

i am certainly glad you are still around.
♥

[synnoveaevael.livejournal.com]

me too.

♥

[greengirlnj.livejournal.com]

When I graduated high school, I was totally flabbergasted. For some reason, it NEVER occured to me that I'd live to see that day.


OMG, I relate to this so much you have no clue!

I'm glad you're still here :)

Jan.

[synnoveaevael.livejournal.com]

ditto and likewise :D

[nightspawn.livejournal.com]

Yay for the Squishy!

I'd give my left nut to have your mindset.

Maybe someday....:)

[synnoveaevael.livejournal.com]

don't give up the nuts.

i'm convinced it'll happen for ya ;)

and YAAAY for squishie!

[jedi-007.livejournal.com]

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

*MWAH*

I LOVE YOU TOO!!!!

[synnoveaevael.livejournal.com]

iz true.

i love you more than anything else.

*MWAAAHHH*

[vladyphoenixv.livejournal.com]

Aww, that was totally soooo sweet.

Everything has a purpose and reason. Archie is Karma/Goddess/God/Higher Power (whatever you want to put in there)'s way of saying "Hey, you know, I'm really sorry about having Life shit on you, so here you go. You deserve it and him."

And the fact that you appreciate and love him the way you do is your way of saying "Thank you" for the Goddess giving him to you. You celebrate your moments with each other and that's a rare and special thing. And I'm humbled and honored to say that I've seen the beginnings of this beautiful relationship and to have shared a part of your life with you.

Love ya, lady. =)

[synnoveaevael.livejournal.com]

awwww.. thanks de.

i'm all emotional and shit.

:D

=)

[vladyphoenixv.livejournal.com]

Awww... *Hugs*

Re: =)

[synnoveaevael.livejournal.com]

*giggles*

nice icon :)

*hugs*