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Feb. 7th, 2005
I am so fucking sore.
Seriously, my left leg is like "Why did you fall?? Don't you KNOW how much you weigh??"
*sighs*
I'm so fucking crankie and irritable today. I can't stop it. Stupid brain won't stop thinking, and it's not helping ANYTHING and my leg is throbbing and my coworker is a complete sped today.
GRRRR.
Seriously, my left leg is like "Why did you fall?? Don't you KNOW how much you weigh??"
*sighs*
I'm so fucking crankie and irritable today. I can't stop it. Stupid brain won't stop thinking, and it's not helping ANYTHING and my leg is throbbing and my coworker is a complete sped today.
GRRRR.
Open letter...
Feb. 7th, 2005 08:49 pmTo my friends...
Most of you, are going through some really hard times right now. Loss of many kinds, drastic changes and just general depression.
Some of you, are happy as could be. AND rightfully deservant of said happiness.
To all of you, I love you.
Times change, people change, hearts break, loved ones leave us, depression comes, life seems to halt.
But... there's the other side of the coin. New beginnings, marriages, babies, new jobs, and continuing loves...
Knowing when to stop leading a lie, and starting life anew for yourself.
Knowing when to step back, and see your world for what it really is.
For seeing the friends you have in it, the support they give and the challenges they help you through.
For opening your eyes, and seeing poisons fed to you by others under a seemingly sweet guise.
For parents, for friends, for sisters, brothers and cousins who help you. They may make you insane at times, but they usually mean well.
And if they don't. Open your eyes. See for yourself.
Perspective.
Emotions are strong, and more often than not, valid for what you feel.
Don't ignore that gut instinct.
Open your eyes, and see the full picture. Listen to your gut instincts. Surround yourself with people you wish to be like or that you feel you grow spiritually from. If you don't want to be like them in ten years, keep them as acquaintances or distractions. Know your true friends.
Know your loves.
Know your values.
Learn from your past. Let it not dictate who you are today, but let it help guide you to who you may become.
Remember the good times.
Learn from the bad ones.
See that spark inside.
We all have that spark as children. Don't let it fade.
Enjoy your happiness.
Learn from your sadness.
But above all, be true to yourselves.
Most of you, are going through some really hard times right now. Loss of many kinds, drastic changes and just general depression.
Some of you, are happy as could be. AND rightfully deservant of said happiness.
To all of you, I love you.
Times change, people change, hearts break, loved ones leave us, depression comes, life seems to halt.
But... there's the other side of the coin. New beginnings, marriages, babies, new jobs, and continuing loves...
Knowing when to stop leading a lie, and starting life anew for yourself.
Knowing when to step back, and see your world for what it really is.
For seeing the friends you have in it, the support they give and the challenges they help you through.
For opening your eyes, and seeing poisons fed to you by others under a seemingly sweet guise.
For parents, for friends, for sisters, brothers and cousins who help you. They may make you insane at times, but they usually mean well.
And if they don't. Open your eyes. See for yourself.
Perspective.
Emotions are strong, and more often than not, valid for what you feel.
Don't ignore that gut instinct.
Open your eyes, and see the full picture. Listen to your gut instincts. Surround yourself with people you wish to be like or that you feel you grow spiritually from. If you don't want to be like them in ten years, keep them as acquaintances or distractions. Know your true friends.
Know your loves.
Know your values.
Learn from your past. Let it not dictate who you are today, but let it help guide you to who you may become.
Remember the good times.
Learn from the bad ones.
See that spark inside.
We all have that spark as children. Don't let it fade.
Enjoy your happiness.
Learn from your sadness.
But above all, be true to yourselves.