synnoveaevael: (Peter Steele nomnom)
Soo proud. To be by your side. We were, a team no one denied...


What is the link, between these crafts, doctors and thieves they both wear masks, modern day... meat magicians... ... so let me die... with dignity... it's not suicide... simply mercy...


Life's a game.. I cannot win. Both good and bad must surely end.... The mirrors always tell the truth. I love myself for hating you.... heywaitaminute...



Yet in the dark, he still screams your naaame.... ... leave. leave her alone... I said leave her. Alone. Alone. ALONE. Me me me me me I know whyy...



Would you suffer eternally? Or internally?


In her place, one hundred candles burning... A salty sweat drips from her breast.. Her hips move and I can feel what they're sayin', swayin'... They say the beast inside of me is gonna get ya, get ya, yeah... Black lipstick stains her glass of red wine. I am your servant, may I light your cigarette... those lips smooth, and I can feel what you're saying, praying.. They say the beast inside of me is gonna get ya, get ya, yeahhh.... I beg to serve, your wish is my law. Now close those eyes and let me love you to death... Shall I prove I mean what I'm saying, begging, I say the beast inside of me is gonna get ya, get ya yeah...


Loving you was like loving the dead, loving you was like loving the dead, loving you was like loving the dead.... was like fucking the dead.


The stockings are hung but who cares?


But who will save the sane? Some beings, just can't change. Now, crawl on by, a fake tear in your eye and think 'isn't he strange?'...


They keep me warm on cold nights, it must be quite a sight... In our meat triangle... All tangled, wow! My girlfriend's girlfriend... she looks like... you! My girlfriend's girlfriend... she's my girl.. too ;-)


Nettie... no need to cry. Let me. Wipe those tear drops from your eyes. Nettie... no need to cry... Let me, wipe those tear drops from your eyes. In the dark bathed in cathode ray blue, Miss Red Hook of 1922... weeping silently for the pain of others... Every night a tearful rosary... a victim of the curse of empathy.. Her reward for compassion, is to suffer... Nettie... no need to cry... Let me, wipe those tear drops from your eyes... My shortcomings I know have caused her grief. But still she loves me this I can't believe!! Responding not with anger, but a prayer... Heaven's just southwest of Cobble Hill. Who I am the son of an angel! Maternally not one woman compares... Nettie! no need, to cry. Let me, wipe those tear drops from your eyes... (god I'd love to know what is said during the chanting)


Now I remember what he told me that time, falling from my bike scraping my knee, 'if you're going to weep keep it from sunshine, so no... one... sees'.... oooh, I won't cry! Above all things boy, be a man. I won't cry! Above all things boy be a man. See little boy hiding amongst ancient shadows, tears exposing ancient pain, from the storms predicted by the tarot, pray... for... rain.


And how many times.. can I say, I'm not sorry? And how many ways can I show I don't care? Rotting bodies of enemies! Cannot smell sweet enough to me. What is the price of a friend? Who would carry out revenge...


Like a flash of night. In an endless night. Life is trapped between, two black entities. Cause when you trust someone... Illusion has begun... no way to prepare... impending despair. Did one say so crue, 'tis better to love than lose'? Ignorance is bliss, wish knew not your kiss... So many times been burned. This lesson goes unlearned. Remember desire only fuels the fire... liar. I don't neeeeed love. I don't neeeed love. Betwixt birth and death.. Every breath regret. I pity the living... Envy for the dead. Emotionally stunned. In defense I'm numb. I'd rather not care than to be aware. Be scared... I don't neeeeeed love. I don't neeeed love... Are a thousand tears, worth a single smile. And if you give an inch. Will they take a mile? Longing for the past. But dreading the future. If not being used, then you're a user, and a loser, ah... World reknown failure, in both death and life.. Given nothingness, purgatory blight... To run and hide? A cowardly procedure. Options exhausted... except for anesthesia, anesthesia, ah.


Say the words I long to hear: Pinch bite kiss suck lick and sear... In a pyromantic way, I'm her slave. Living for her to ignite.


WE DON'T CARE. WHAT YOU THINK. WE DON'T CARE. WHAT. YOU. THINK.


Hey Bacchus, aaah. She hates me!


If you don't kill me, me. I'm gonna have to kill you, you.


See her smile lead me to the bedroom... Fire burning and there's wine for two... Feel your legs spreading out to take me, I just can't wait to get inside you... Summer girl. Make me feel fine, Always... in the corner. Of my mind.


Cold is the night in so many ways, Luna round, full and bright. Deep be the mud on the fresh dug graves, on yours. I recite. An ancient spell I know so well, success is guaranteed. I'll bring you back from where you've gone. On all. Hallow's Eve!


How quickly pass the days... Long, is the night.. Lying in bed awake, bathed, in starlight. It's better to live, as king of beasts... Than as a lamb... scared. And weak.

In death or life we'll always be... I find myself drawn to her shadow domain...


No whyyyyy... Oh god I miss you. I really miss you.
synnoveaevael: (Peter Steele nomnom)
The way it's sung. The way it sounds. The rhythms and movements. It's a great break up song too. (NOT THAT THERE IS AN ISSUE, I AM JUST OBSESSED WITH TYPE O NEGATIVE).


Like a flash of light in an endless night
Life is trapped between two black entities
'Cause when you trust someone
Illusion has begun
No way to prepare
Impending despair

Did one say so cruel
'Tis better to love and lose
Ignorance is bliss
Wish not knew your kiss
So many times been burned
This lesson goes unlearned
Remember desire only fuels the fire
Liar!

Betwixed birth and death
Every breath regret
I pity the living
Envy for the dead
Emotionally stunned
In defense - I'm numb
I'd rather not care then to be aware
Be scared

I don't need love

Are a thousand tears worth a single smile?
When you give an inch, will they take a mile?
Longing for the past but dreading the future
If not being used, well then you're a user and a loser

World reknowned failure at both death and life
Given nothingness, purgatory blight
To run and hide, a cowardly procedure
Options exhausted, except for anesthesia
Anesthesia

I don't feel anything
I don't need anything
I don't need love

synnoveaevael: (Shirley Manson - I <3 nerds)
Roll Away Your Stone

Roll away your stone, I’ll roll away mine
Together we can see what we will find
Don’t leave me alone at this time,
For I’m afraid of what I will discover inside

Cause you told me that I would find a hole,
Within the fragile substance of my soul
And I have filled this void with things unreal,
And all the while my character it steals

Darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I see
It seems that all my bridges have been burned,
But you say that’s exactly how this grace thing works


It’s not the long walk home that will change this heart,
But the welcome I receive with the restart
Darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I see

Darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I’ve seen
Stars hide your fires,
These here are my desires

And I won’t give them up to you this time around
And so, I’ll be found with my stake stuck in this ground
Marking the territory of this newly impassioned soul


But you, you’ve gone too far this time
You have neither reason nor rhyme
With which to take this soul that is so rightfully mine


It's a bittersweet knowledge. Moving on. Functioning. Knowing you ARE gonna make it, but at the same time, still struggling to find your way out.

It can happen. And it does.
synnoveaevael: (Chair kitties)
3. "Winter Winds"

As the winter winds litter London with lonely hearts
Oh the warmth in your eyes swept me into your arms

Was it love or fear of the cold that led us through the night?
For every kiss your beauty trumped my doubt

And my head told my heart
“Let love grow”
But my heart told my head
“This time no
This time no”


We’ll be washed and buried one day my girl
And the time we were given will be left for the world
The flesh that lived and loved will be eaten by plague
So let the memories be good for those who stay


And my head told my heart
“Let love grow”
But my heart told my head
“This time no”
Yes, my heart told my head
“This time no
This time no”

Oh the shame that sent me off from the God that I once loved
Was the same that sent me into your arms
Oh and pestilence is won when you are lost and I am gone
And no hope, no hope will overcome

And if your strife strikes at your sleep
Remember spring swaps snow for leaves
You’ll be happy and wholesome again
When the city clears and sun ascends

And my head told my heart
“Let love grow”
But my heart told my head
“This time no”
And my head told my heart
“Let love grow”
But my heart told my head
“This time no
This time no”


And my head told my heart
“Let love grow”
But my heart told my head
“This time no
This time no”


If you haven't had an argument between your head and your heart. Well. I don't know if you've really truly been in love, or learned the emotional depth of what you could reach. Or perhaps your life is perfect. *lol*


We’ll be washed and buried one day my girl
And the time we were given will be left for the world
The flesh that lived and loved will be eaten by plague
So let the memories be good for those who stay


This reminds me of part of a poem a friend of mine wrote in high school. It was a very long time ago, and I don't have it in front of me, but part of it went something like "In the end we'll both be dead, and it won't matter who said what, every kiss we once shared no longer a memory..." etc.

I thought it was fantastic. It is also why I try to let things go. I truly do. People often mistake my long memory for a grudge, but it's anything but. If it were, there would be a lot of people I didn't talk to or who felt my ire. As it stands, very few people have actually seen me angry. Thankfully. It is not my favorite emotion.

But. That being said. It reminds me that life is short and nothing is permanent. Love while you can.

Ahhh...

May. 24th, 2011 07:27 pm
synnoveaevael: (Kittie - Surprise Kitteh)
Song 2.

The Cave

It’s empty in the valley of your heart
The sun, it rises slowly as you walk
Away from all the fears
And all the faults you’ve left behind

The harvest left no food for you to eat
You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see
But I have seen the same
I know the shame in your defeat

But I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I’ll change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again


Cause I have other things to fill my time
You take what is yours and I’ll take mine
Now let me at the truth
Which will refresh my broken mind

So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans through my tears
I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears

But I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again

So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker’s hand


So make your siren’s call
And sing all you want
I will not hear what you have to say

Cause I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it’s meant to be


And I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again


GODDAMMIT ALL! I love these lyrics.

I have found strength in pain. My biggest strengths have come from my agony.

I've also stopped people from hanging themselves figuratively (and possibly literally), even when I thought *I* wanted to kill them.

There are so many things these lyrics say to me. This song when I first heard it on the radio, my brain shortwired. I was convinced I could have written it.

Oh how I love this band.
synnoveaevael: (Shirley Manson - I <3 nerds)
So. I've been listening to Mumford & Sons "Sigh No More" album like. A lot. I needed a Type O Negative break. Got stuck in a loop there for a bit.

Anyrate. Goddamn. This album's lyrics are... they just make me remember every crap feeling I've ever had about a break up or something sorrowful, but the positive emotions during it. If that makes any sense at all.

SO! I'm going to post a song a day, the lyrics. :)

1. Sigh No More

Serve God, love me and mend
This is not the end
Lived unbruised, we are friends
And I’m sorry
I’m sorry

Sigh no more, no more
One foot in sea and one on shore
My heart was never pure
And you know me
You know me

But man is a giddy thing
Oh man is a giddy thing
Oh man is a giddy thing
Oh man is a giddy thing

Love it will not betray you
Dismay or enslave you, it will set you free

Be more like the man you were made to be
There is a design, an alignment, a cry
Of my heart to see,
The beauty of love as it was made to be


Man, those lines:
Love it will not betray you
Dismay or enslave you, it will set you free


I think if people could really listen to that, they would understand. They would not be in abusive relationships or maybe they could realize that love is a positive feeling and not something that makes you feel badly or badly about yourself.

I don't know. But I kind of love it.
synnoveaevael: (Lil Me)
Cool kids, never have the time.

Today is the last day of my 20s.

Tomorrow, I embark on the adventure that is my 30s.

I had a pretty good decade in my 20s. I hope the 30s is good too. I hope that 29 isn't some sort of jumping off point for that cause 29 was sorta off and retarded, but had some good points.

I've been all reflective and shit.

Anyrate. I have to pack for Pennsic. Almost done. So weird. One week. In one week I will be at landgrab. One week.

And tomorrow. I will be 30.

Pennsic's a good way to kick off my 30s. Dontchya think?

Shakedown 1979.
Cool kids never have the time.
On a live wire right up off the street,
You and I, should meet.

Junebug skipping like a stone.
With the headlights pointed at the dawn.
We were sure we'd never see an end to it all.

And I don't even care to shake these zipper blues.
And we don't know just where our bones will rest.
To dust, I guess;
Forgotten and absorbed to the earth below.

Double cross the vacant and the bored.
They're not sure just what we have in store.
Morphine city slipping dues down to see.

That we don't even care, as restless as we are.
We feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts.
And poured cement, lamented and assured.

To the lights and towns below.
Faster than the speed of sound.
Faster than we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope.

Justine never knew the rules;
Hung down with the freaks and ghouls.
No apologies ever need be made; I know you better than you fake it.

To see, that we don't even care to shake these zipper blues.
And we don't know just where our bones will rest.
To dust, I guess;
Forgotten and absorbed to the earth below.

The street heats the urgency of now.
As you see, there's no one around.



I love this.

funny pictures of cats with captions
see more Lolcats and funny pictures

*dancing*

Jun. 25th, 2009 05:38 pm
synnoveaevael: (Dr. Horrible - shoulder shimmie)
And you ache and you bleed
Can't talk you can't sleep
Know who you are
Don't conform anymore

Blow your mind
Break the routine
Leave everything behind
Come taste the gasoline

Burn the bridge
Stall the machine
Cut those ties
Come kiss that guillotine
synnoveaevael: (Dr. Horrible - shoulder shimmie)
God created the Heaven and the Earth.

And the Earth was without form and void.

And darkness was upon face of the deep.

And God said "Let there be light."

And there was light.

And God saw the light, that it was good.

And God divided the light from the darkness.

And God called the light day, and the darkness he called night.

And God saw everything he had made, and behold it was good.

And God created Man.

And Man created Machine.

And Machine, Machine created Music.

And Machine saw everything it had made and said, "Behold."

Oh my love, it's time
You know how it feels
You read between the lines
You know me better than I do
I lost again, my friend
You know I'm not a saint
You've known it all this time
Still you've been waiting for me here...

Oh my love, it's time
You know how it feels
You read between the lines
And know me better than I do
I'm lost again my friend
You know I'm not a saint
You've known it all this time
Still you've been waiting for me here...

And machine saw everything it had made and said "behold"

Come lie next to me
Know why, you and me are one
Come lie next to me
No lies, you and me are one


Come lie next to me
Know why, you and me are one
Come lie next to me
No lies, you and me are one

Come lie next to me
Know why, you and me are one
Come lie next to me
No lies, you and me are one

Come lie next to me
Know why, you and me are one
Come lie next to me
No lies, you and me are one

Come lie next to me
Know why, you and me are one
Come lie next to me
No lies, you and me are one

You know I'm not a saint...
You know I'm not a saint...
You know I'm not a saint...
You know I'm not a saint...
You know I'm not a saint...
You know I'm not a saint...
You know I'm not a saint...
You know I'm not a saint...
You know I'm not a saint...

And on the seventh day, Machine pressed stop...

*yawn*

Oct. 28th, 2008 02:14 am
synnoveaevael: (Black cherry)
Quick things. I got a text from Nix today making sure I was alive. Then I realized it'd been a few days since I posted.

Again.

Anyrate. Your not-so-brief, exhausted version of.... Things.

- Did my finances, and figured out I couldn't hit up PARF this year. Which saddens me. But I did get a concert call during Scotland Depraved from Kim so it made me squee.

- But due to my lovely connections in Maryland, I was able to go hang out with some of my Hedgies this weekend. Wonderful and delightful, and I can't wait to do it again next weekend. This past weekend was really one of the most relaxing I've had in.... I don't even fucking know. I met a ton of fantastic people, nearly won a $25 Amazon gift card in a trivia game (curse you second place!! *shakes fist*), and watched a self proclaimed bisexual man dressed as Katomari collapse 3 times in hysterics when I offered to let him touch my cleavage.

- Part of relaxing entailed reading. I read so much I got a headache. I'm partway through the fourth Twilight book. I have decided they are brain candy. There is nothing nutritional about them, but damn are they tasty. They're a lot of fun. At first I thought they were angsty, but then I recalled the last few Harry Potter books and realized they weren't even close. LOL :) Ahh, high school.

- I'm doing okay. I swear. I just have a weird headspace every so often. I think that's allowed. Besides, I'm bleeding. Nothing I say or feel is right.

- I went to Walmart for FUCKING TWO HOURS tonight. My father called me, sounding... I don't want to say desparate. But more like a man who knows he should swallow his pride and ask his kid for help as much as he didn't want to. So he called me. See, my dad has a car, he just has no license. He's working on getting it back (fines and whatever that built up over forever), but he FINALLY broke up with Cookie and he & Lorenzo got a new apartment. It's actually rather nice. And Lorenzo has AIM now, so hopefully I can keep up with him more. (He got suspended. Again. For mouthing off. Again. Almost 13, will he live to see it?? *shakes head*) My dad is trying to do the right thing for once in his life. Far be it from me to hinder that.

So I told him I was free tonight. And I spent too long in Walmart. He had to basically start lots of things over from scratch. He dropped about $520. AT WALMART. Real world dollars that was about $1000. He did everything from food shopping to furniture. It was impressive really. Impressive I got everything in my bleedin' car.

Then he took us out for dinner. He also gave me almost a tank of gas, and a belated gift from whenever (birthday/christmas/whatever - $50 at B&N, woo!). If he said thank you once, he said it 10 times.

He's trying. It's a lot more than I can say for some people.

- I still haven't watched last week's Grey's Anatomy, but I finally watched last week's Heroes. I will watch both shows tomorrow.

- Work sucks my left ovary. But, thank the gods Patrick is back. Mister is crankier than ever. Brian is scatterbrained. I don't understand what's going on. I'm trying to teach Richele how to be psychic to Mister's brain, and she's a lil' tweaked. That and she hasn't gotten the translator installed into her head to read his handwriting. Makes me feel like I'm doing something, teaching her and translating at least. Woo.

- Finally watched 27 Dresses. Epitome of chick flick. I think Jared's balls crawled up inside of him at some point.

- Obtained from Wally World a few mesh rack things. I'm organizing my lack of cabinet space better. I'm tired of feeling like everything is falling on me if I open a cabinet. My life is so sloppie. I'm beginning to grow weary of it.

- It turns out, Ethiopian food is not my favorite. Why is everything so spicy? I don't get the fad. I don't. To me it is not flavor. It is just pain. I can't taste anything, but pain. OH, not true. The first bite sometimes is good. Then the pain. I wish I wasn't sensitive to this. It limits food options and everyone else seems to have fun setting their mouths and guts aflame.

- If I hadn't been waylaid by my father, I was going to hunt down a hair dresser and get my hair cut. So this shall be tomorrow's mission. It is disgusting. The ends look so frayed. Terrible. At least it is glossy as fuck.

- I think this is enough of an update for you. I think.

- Ah, Maynard.

Delusional
I believed I could cure it all for you dear
Coax or trick or drive or
Drag the demons from you
Make it right for you
Sleeping beauty, truly thought
I could magically heal you

You're far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
Failing miserably to rescue
Sleeping beauty

Drunk on ego, truly thought I could make it right if I
Kissed you one more time to help you face the nightmare, but you're
Far too poisoned for me
Such a fool to think that I could
Wake you from your slumber, that I could actually heal you

Sleeping beauty
Poisoned and hopeless

Far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
Failing miserably to find a way to comfort you
Far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
Hiding from some poisoned memory

Poisoned and hopeless
Sleeping beauty
synnoveaevael: (HP4 - Fred & George - Excellent)
Spacehog - In The Meantime...

And in the end we shall achieve in time
The thing they call divine
And all the stars will smile for me
When all is well and well is all for all
Forever after
Living in the meantime wait and see

We love the all the all of you
Where lands are green and skies are blue
When all in all we're just like you
We love the all of you

And when I cry for me I cry for you
With tears of holy joy
For all the days still to come
And did I ever say I'd never play
Or fly toward the sun
Living in the meantime something's gone

We love the all the all of you
Where lands are green and skies are blue
When all in all we're just like you
We love the all of you

Well that sounds fine so I'll see you sometime
Give my love to the future of the humankind
Okay, okay, it's not okay.
While it's on my mind there's a girl that fits the crime
For a future love dream that I'm still to find
But in the meantime.

We love the all the all of you
Where lands are green and skies are blue
When all in all we're just like you
We love the all of you

We love the all the all of you
Where lands are green and skies are blue
When all in all we're just like you
We love the all of you

We love the all the all of you
Our lands are green and skies are blue

Just like you,
just like you.
just like, just like
Just like you,
just like you.
Just like, just like
just like you.

Blah.

Oct. 2nd, 2008 04:05 pm
synnoveaevael: (Reality Bites - Winter of our Discontent)
I have nothing to say. Again.

I did laundry last night. Woo. Clean clothes. Got distracted by life and didn't fold them. So now they will be all wrinkled.

Accidentally locked Firenze in my room last night. I woke up with a cat nose on mine and when she saw I was awake she licked my nose.

Crazy.Little.Kitten.

I'm a big ol' ball of stress lately and I'm just waiting to snap. It'll be SO pleasant when my world finally snaps. I can't wait. /sarcasm

Everything I want to talk about I can't. My head is going to explode.

Tonight I go out with Ammre for her natal anniversary. Yay mah Annewhich. Yay gluten free Italian restaurants.

Heidi & Richele were "apprised" of real estate closings going on here. I can do them. But no. Let's take the busiest person in the office and make her learn something else. *sigh* I feel completely useless and stupid here.

Oh, I started Twilight. I wasn't paying attention when I started reading. I thought Jared was reading Twilight and I was starting The Host. I WAS CONFUSED. I'm better now.

Why can't I wake up in the future. Not far in the future. Just a bit.

Damned lotta Russian pr0n on Random LJ image today.


Two steps forward, three steps back
Without warning, heart attack
He fell asleep in the snow
Never woke up, died alone

I don't wanna be
I don't wanna be me
I don't wanna be
Me anymore

*sigh*

Sep. 24th, 2008 11:08 am
synnoveaevael: (Mad Cow)
I am pmsy and gross. My skin is gross, I am bloated, and worst off my emotions are doing things to me that I really don't care to discuss cause I'm like "this can't be normal".

Like my life is so peachie effin keen right now that I wouldn't be having depressive issues.

So make me smile fuckers, post some pix or funnie anecdotes or something.

My bosses are flippin' ruhtarded lately. I am going to take both of them by the neck and SLAM their skulls together. Patrick is fine. Although we are TOTALLY fuxxored cause that bastard is taking off the fucking month of October for his wedding & honeymoon. Seeing as we have no real estate secretary, he's been doing his own shit, and HAAHHA, no one knows what's going on.

Terrifying, really.

Oh, and Mister turned off the fucking radio today. *boggle* Uh, excuse me? We're listening to fucking PLJ for chrissakes. Ain't like there's some crazy shit on there. Richele listens to the internet radio for Z100, and that's decidedly more obnoxious than this. I'm annoyed. It's too quiet in here and it's weird.

And I have clients who popped in and couldn't seem to understand the concept of "if you have any changes to your documents, please call our office so we can make them prior to your signature". Thanks for letting me print and grommet everything so NOW you can make changes. Hate. You. Last name is Payne, and ya know what. THEY ARE.

In other news, has anyone tried the M&M Premiums? I'm currently chowing down on the raspberry almond ones and HOT DAMN are they derishus. And they're pretty. :) I can't stop eating them. *hides them in desk drawer*

I am friggin HUNGRY. I didn't eat a whole lot last night. Although I drank most of a bottle of wine cause, well, I could. It was there.

I watched Heroes last night. OH! PEOPLE ON MY FLIST!! I have no teevee. I watch all my shows the NEXT DAY online. So could you not comment with spoilers and stuff? Spank you :) NOT that anyone has, but I want to pre-empt the strike.


Kegger tonight. Frickin' sweet.

And the sun will set for you
The sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in grey
And the sun will set for you



Song reminds me of my cousin Salvatore. It was the last song on before the EVIL MUSIC was killed. :(

*yawn*

Sep. 18th, 2008 12:17 pm
synnoveaevael: (Labyrinth - Sup Bitches)
- I showed you mine, so now you show me yours.

- I am tired.

- Oh teh emo. I has you. I wish you would go away.

- On top of being emo, I'm surprised how fucking SPRING it is with it being, you know, the middle of September.

- I think I'm losing my mind.

- I miss my family. Joey came through his surgery just fine. My lil' man. <3 <3

- Tia is back. I have missed her. *fiends* The texting is mere methadone for this addiction. ;)

- Not going to De's tonight. Might go to SAmmre's. Hmm.

- Work is sucking today. At least I cleaned off my desk some. I totally forgot to sign Richele up for her seminar last night. I thought she'd done it, and she thought I'd done it. WHOOPS. They didn't give me any information, they gave it to her, so I thought it was done. Craptastic.

- I feel so fucking out of it. I need a cookie. NO! That is why you gained four pounds. I'm going to go get a friggin veggie tray.

You've got a heart of glass or a heart of stone
Just you wait till I get you home
We've got no future, we've got no past
Here today, built to last

AAHH!

Sep. 11th, 2008 04:01 pm
synnoveaevael: (Grey's Anatomy - Mark/Callie - good boy)
- I feel like I am never getting out of here.

- I am itchie. Like, I need to get out of my skin itchie. Which is probably why the aforementioned is making me batshit.

- I feel like I haven't done a fucking thing today, but apparently I have. I don't quite get it. Still haven't done that trust. "Would you like a revocable or irrevocable trust?" is still the question on my screen. Mind you, that is the FIRST FUCKING QUESTION.

- I have heard "America, America" about 13 times today. I GET IT. COULD YOU PLEASE LET PEOPLE HEAL. Imagine if you will, you lost your spouse in one of those horrific events of 7 years ago. Imagine, if you will, the GUILT and the PAIN you go through because every year you cannot get away from the forced patriotism and "never forget" mentality. Would you ever be able to move on? I don't think I could. And I am a pretty strong monkey.

- I hate the fucking radio.

- Brian told me an hour ago that he was only going to be here for another 20 to 30 minutes and RUSHED me to do a whole bunch of documents. He hasn't signed them yet. *gr*

- I am so spring it isn't even funnie. *see icon*

- I have a Pampered Chef party to go to tomorrow night. Therefore, I will be late arriving at Casa de Puck Hair.

Goddamn
The torpedoes
It's time to run away with the sideshow
Full speed
Right ahead
Don't stop
You can sleep when you're dead
Be proud to deviate
This time to instigate
Dictate your own fate
Your about to detonate
See the world obliterate

synnoveaevael: (Rose Grrl)
Friday.

Drove to Bill's. We went out to dinner. Where the fuck did we go again? OH! Right, Benitos or something. I had cheese ravioli in their vodka sauce which was SO nommie. I was very tired. I apparently cracked our waitress up. My humor is high when I am running on little sleep.

Went back to his place and we proceeded to punish our livers with as much mead and wine as we could. We got through 4 bottles. Jim got there around 11 and helped with that fourth bottle, but we still pretty much killed them ourselves. Let us talk polluted. Not St. Patty's day polluted, but still.

Saturday.

Woke up. Cried. No, just kidding. ;) Went to faire. Sold a whopping FOUR effin roses. They closed faire. Then, it MONSOONED. Went back to Bill's. Napped. Went out to dinner. Napped.

Sunday.

Went to faire. Apparently, I was having a fantastic boob day and no one could keep their hands/faces/etc off of them. Or the comments. Huzzah. Got petted a lot. Sold 36 roses. Woo. Saw a very pretty boy who remembered meeting me, and I had NO idea that I'd met him. HA. I think my memory is going. Had a TON of energy for some reason. Very strange, if you know me ;)

Today. Today I am tired. Going out tonight though, cause well. You can sleep when you're dead.

OH my god my boss. NO MORE CAFFEINE FOR YOU OLD MAN.

I hear the roar of a big machine
Two worlds and in between
Hot metal and methedrine
I hear empire down...

We got the empire, now as then
We don't doubt, we don't take reflection
Lucretia, my direction, dance the ghost with me...

synnoveaevael: (MJK Bellie Button)
Run, desire run;
Sexual being.
Run him like a blade-
To and through the heart.
No conscience,
One motive:
To cater to the hollow.

Screaming,
"Feed me here;
Fill me up, again."
Temporarily pacify this hungering

So grow,
Libido throw
Dominoes of indiscretions down.
Falling all around,
In cycles,
In circles;
Constantly consuming-
Conquer and devour.

'Cause it's time to bring the fire down.
Bridle all this indiscretion
Long enough to edify,
And permanently fill this hollow.

Screaming,
"Feed me here;
Fill me up, again."
Temporarily pacifying.

"Feed me here;
Fill me up, again."
Temporarily pacifying.

*yawn*

Sep. 4th, 2008 12:18 am
synnoveaevael: (Ferris Bueller - Asshole)
I are stoopid and left my cell phone charger at Bill's this past weekend.

I went to Radio Shack today and they were closed by 8:30??? Jared hit one up in the city and it was closed at 8:57.

FUCKERS.

Tomorrow I shall be hitting up a shack or somewhere that sells cell phone chargers and buying one. I need one for the car anyways. Just getting an iGo tip since Jared has the damned iGo charger.

Stoopid.

ETA: WTF!? HAHAHA! So I go to nab J-Ro's friggin charger, and IT HAS THE EXACT ATTACHMENT I NEED ON IT! *giggles* Fanfuckingtastic.

*charges phone*

Ladies, let me tell you about myself
I got a dick for a brain
And my brain is gonna sell my ass to you
Now I'm OK, but in time I'll find I'm stuck
Cause she wants love, and I still want to fuck

synnoveaevael: (Purple jaw)
- Boredom. I has it.

- Exhaustion? I may has that too. I should be fucking shot. My previous post tended to cause more anxiety than I ever though. I went to New Hope last night. Butchered some Siouxsie, but had Jim, the 87 year old Sinatra singer compliment me. He ended up with a bra on his head later.

- Snagged a Skwrl and saw the new place. VERY nice. Needs some TLC, but goddamn is it huge and awesome rooms and amazing space and WOW. Just. Color me jealous. Their neighbors have the coolest porch too. Srsly.

- Love hanging out with Draven. And Drew was cracking me the fuck up. That boy can spin a tale. Nice to officially meet Jazzie. Good times, noodle salad.

- I have Pennsic $5.99 a Minute Voice today from all the fucking smokers in the bar. GR!

- So I got to bed at 4am. I have an energy shot and I'm not afraid to use it. But I seem to be okay. I got a Coke *gag* with lunch and I'm nursing that. But. I'm not really that tired. I don't get it. Last year during faire I was exhausted till Thursday and then it started back up again. This year I'm all okay. My tendons are tight, and my calves are balls of steel, but I can wake up in the morning and walk. I just have to take it easier during the day.

Sucks getting old.

- I have to go to my boss's house today to relocate some files. This is an annoying as fuck task. Which is why I put it off. So now it will suck. Even more unfortunate is his grandchildren will be there "helping". Joy. Rapture. At least they're good for manual labor.

- I have been asked to post some of my older stories on my TMFI filter, but I wanna redo some of them. A few of them have some *real* fucking potential. Hopefully I can get in the mindset to do that tonight.

Suddenly!
A movement in the corner of the room!
And there is nothing I can do
And I realize with fright,
That the spiderman is having me for dinner tonight!

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